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[personal profile] desertpowered 2024-03-12 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I look forward to reading them. I'll also be sure to take notes so you can see my thoughts directly. You'll find them interesting, I think. [Paul's abilities also make him a valuable asset for his library job, though he keeps the origin and nature of those abilities secret.]

We maintained some knowledge of that history, yes. The irony of it all wasn't lost on me - Messiahs also tend not to die natural deaths, though I will say stabbing is less unpleasant and torturous than crucifixion. I don't think I have any unfinished business here or elsewhere, so I intend to simply relax and appreciate my freedom. There's a lot of time to make up for, time to spend doing things that I want to do.

[There was a time not so long ago when Paul would say that stabbing seemed kinder a death than he likely deserved, but he wishes to progress past that mindset when it won't do anyone any good. He'd spent years marinating in self-hatred and disgust with his own choices.]

It feels good to worry about small things again.
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[personal profile] desertpowered 2024-03-12 06:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sure. [A firm nod. Paul doesn't need his futuresight to know that.]

Suppose that's a way to look at it. I saw enough futures where I was killed by a knife that it was a reasonable guess I'd go out that way.

[He considers the question as he reaches for a plate.]

Slowly getting my hands on the technology I need to thrive here is the current issue, though the salary helps. Picking up a driver's license at some point.

[There's a quiet gulp as Paul swallows the last piece of fruit. He washes his meal down with what's left of the juice, sighing in satisfaction. There's a soft burp.] Excuse me, Sister. Ah, that was delicious.
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[personal profile] desertpowered 2024-03-14 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Everyone dies eventually. If nothing else, knowing what’s coming gives you time to prepare. [Paul used the time he had left to tie up unfinished business with his sister and stand by his son. He misses Alia, despite the way things went - what happened to her wasn’t really her fault, so he forgives her. His own hands are far from clean.] I don’t know how I’ll die here, but I sincerely hope no stabbing is involved.

[He nods in return to the suggestion of driving lessons.] I’ll take you up on that offer. It should be a useful skill, especially for when I wish to travel. I’d hardly be a conventional driving school student.

[He pushes the emptied plates away and stands in return.] Please do, those were delicious. I’m quite stuffed. A tour would be a wonderful way to walk it all off.
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[personal profile] desertpowered 2024-03-15 01:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Paul didn’t object to dying. He felt his time was over and it was the next generation’s job to finish his work. Of course, it seems things turned out in a way he didn’t anticipate, but he’s hardly objecting to that.]

I don’t have any reason to fight, but that’s not the same as losing my ability to do it if I had to. If I was in a situation where my hand was forced, well, anyone who did that would find that underestimating me in my retirement is a mistake.

[Paul looks forward to the driving lessons. She might be able to see his eyes gleaming.]

I’m ready to start whenever you wish.

[Paul follows along, absorbing any detail he sees. He admired the stained glass artwork before and he admires it now. Paul’s a curious person, wherever and whenever he finds himself. There’s a lot to admire and study in this piece.]

It’s beautiful.